Her dimpled fingers tickle my belly as she crawls up to her "boobah". Pausing, she notices the marks she created. I watch curiously as her wheels turn. "What is she thinking" I wonder. Then she lays down, adoringly pressing her lips to the place she once called home. And in that moment my heart is full.
oh sweet lilah. 8 months old already. this month alone you've turned into an "almost toddler". you're crawling now and following me everywhere i go. it's adorable. you wave and say "hi"! you're trying more table food and love it. you'll eat anything i throw you. it's pretty awesome. i hope you have better eating habit than your pops. you love to play with Em. oh man, you two. my heart. i can't even begin to explain how happy it makes mama to see the two of you having so much fun together.
here's to many more years of happiness with eachother.
i love you so.
well theres far too many questions to ask to answer all of them tonight for I wear too many masks to tell if any of them are wrong or right and confusion casts a shadow upon me like a great big cloud in the sky and now I pray for rain cause it's been so long since I let myself cry for so long ive sang this sad ole song and it feels like my time is up for she came and landed in my arms and she filled my half empty cup yes she filled my half empty cup now I look up above me and I thank that Great Old God in the sky for telling me my cup ain't half empty just took my little girl to show my why there you are right in front of me a brand new day sunrise over sea no longer my cup half empty cause there you are you and your mum in front of me your Peaches & Cream to me you both are Peaches & Cream to me all I know is all I know and i love you...
song by John Butler Trio.
this year for Christmas my husband and I decided to redo emilee's room for her. she had been asking me for a vintage room like lilah's. since lilah doesn't use her nursery we decided to utilize what we had and turn the nursery into a big girl play room for emilee and lilah both. once lilah isn't nursing anymore she will share a room with big sis. emilee loved this idea. redoing a space is always so much fun for me too. i think em's favorite part of it all was seeing my grandmothers jewelry box with a vintage locket inside. she has been asking for a locket for years but i didn't think she was ready for the responsibility. my favorite part has to be the little vintage boho dresses. so delicate. so far it's been a hit. em loves playing in her room. she even lets lilah in on the fun. mama isn't complaining ;)